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We met as the sweet sound of Nirvana took up the room. You played it to me, to everyone but i loved it and you the most. It wasnt a perfect performance to those who didnt care but the sound of my friends singing, the other players and your guitar filled up the room. It was beautiful and it meant everything to me in that moment. I felt bliss, the pride for my friend😉 and the secret passion i felt for you, i felt like i was going to burst!!!! I will never forget that night.
I told you i liked your shirt, i really did! It was a Korn t-shirt. In the future while we were dating i got a Korn poster, it was because of you but i do also like Korn. Its still on my wall (I DO LIKE KORN) but i miss you and thinking about how head over heels i was for you makes me sad. I still have your hoodie, im never giving it back.
I love you.. still. FUCK!!!!!!
Everything went so quickly in our
relationship and ended so fast. We were each unhealthy in our own ways and thats we broke up. ‘It was for the best’. We have time now to explore our own identities and figure out what we want, but im still the same, are you too? I dont know but i know you dont love me anymore and i still do. We were both a bit fucked up at the time but I have never connected with anyone like that before. I dont think i ever will as people are different in their own ways.
I was your first and i know you’ll definitely remember me. Knowing i made an impact on your life, however you feel about it makes me satisfied (and a lil sad🥹and smug😏).
I like other people now, i so easily fall in love but i would trade them in an instant for you. They’re all shallow compared to you as i know how deeply you loved me. I want you😭😭😭!!!! No one else is that so hard to understand😭😭😭!!!!!!
I see you in things and it hurts. I think of you as soon as i forget. I miss you so much even though i know youll never love me again. How we connected so intensely i will never forget.
Smells Like Teen Spirit, that shitty ass fucking song. i hate it because every time i hear it i think of you.
So i guess..?
Im back to Zero.
Oh God i miss you😭😭😭.