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Nam gyu was coming back from the bathroom. He was shaking, not knowing what to do.
“Thanos, that fucking asshole. That son of a bitch treated me like a fucking idiot.” before he knew it, tears were coming out of his eyes.
He felt so tired, so drained. He missed Thanos already. He wished that he was the one who died instead. He turned his head, feeling someone was watching him.
Turns out no one was. Maybe he should just overdose. He hold that cross for dear life. Like it was the only thing he had.
He could just go up to Se mi, his older sister, and get the comfort he needed. But, he had no energy to get up.
He felt like he was gonna collapse any second. He wrapped Thanos’ jacket that he stole from his cold, lifeless body on his.
He ran his hands through his hair, distracting him from the fact that Thanos was gone. Even if it was only a bit, he missed when him and Thanos had late night conversations.
He wanted to go to his big sisters bunk so bad. But he didnt. He didnt want his sister to see him in such a miserable state.
He didnt want to be vulnerable around her. But at the same time, he needed her so badly. He wanted to be tucked away, in his sisters arms, safe from the world.
But he couldn’t, they weren’t kids anymore. He was an adult, he should be able to take care of this himself. But he didnt want to.
He wanted to be that little boy again. Who ran to his sister every time she came home. He wanted that kind of relationship with her again.
But, he could never have it back. They weren’t kids anymore. Theyve grown up already. They werent as close as before.
He tried to fall asleep but, he kept having nightmares. In the end, he gave up on trying to sleep. Not wanting to face his nightmares.
A figure walks over to him, tapping his shoulder lightly. “Hey, Namnam, you okay? You dont look very good.” It was Se mi.
Se mi was asking him if he was okay. “Yeah, im fine.” Nam gyu says, tiredly. “Are you sure? You look like you havent slept at all..” Se mi asks him.
“Im fine, Se mi. Just leave me alone.” Se mi’s eyes go wide at that. Nam gyu has only called her ‘mimi’ before, never her actual name.
“Hey, you know you can talk to me right?” Se mi says with a worried expression on her face. “I heard Thanos died from the fight in the bathrooms, are you sure youre alright?” Se mi kept asking.
“Look, i dont know what you want from me but cant you just leave me alone!” Nam gyu yells, but not loud enough to wake up the others.
Nam gyu didnt realize it but, tears were falling out of his eyes. “Oh, NamNam, its okay im here.” Se mi sits doen next to him, hugging him and trying to calm him down.
Nam gyu sobs into her shoulders, struggling to breathe. Se mi, whispers soft assurances, trying to get him to calm down more.
She places his head on her lap, playing with his hair. Nam gyu eventually stops crying. Falling asleep in Se mi’s lap.
Se mi kisses his forehead, laying him down on the pillow. She was about to leave but then a hand grabbed her wrist.
“Mimi, please, stay. Just for tonight..?” Nam gyu asks, or begs, really. But of course, Se mi says yes. She loves her little brother after all.
Se mi cradles Nam gyu in her arms. Rocking him slowly. They eventually fall asleep. That time, Nam gyu didnt have any nighmares.