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now I can see it all

Summary:

Carla’s mundane existence as a vampire felt like eternal purgatory until Lisa showed up.

Chapter 1: I heard you calling

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Carla adjusted the strap of her bespoke leather bag, the familiar, comforting weight of one hundred and thirty years of accumulated knowledge settling deep within her bones. She navigated the crowded thoroughfare, a churning river of students rushing from one deadline to the next. It was the frantic dawn of a new academic year at Manchester University, a bustling, sprawling campus now fully awake. The air was a discordant symphony of fresh faces, nervous, echoing chatter, and the pungent aroma of cheap campus coffee mingling with the faint, unsettling tang of youthful, naive ambition. She’d walked these paths for decades, seen countless generations come and go, each new batch utterly convinced they were the ones destined to reshape the world. Some did, of course; they left their indelible, messy marks on history. But the vast majority merely learned enough to secure a decent career, leaving their initial revolutionary zeal behind in the cold, echoing lecture halls like discarded, forgotten textbooks.

She thought of the thousands upon thousands of ephemeral lives that had passed her by, the myriad of souls she’d coolly observed from behind the polished safety of her lecturer’s podium. It was a strange, almost cruel dichotomy, this immortal existence. To have become a creature of the night and to have spent the last 130 years watching the world speed up around her while she remained fixed at a vibrant, deceiving 40 years of age. To have witnessed revolutions and seismic flow of empires, the agonizing birth of world-altering technologies, and the rise and catastrophic fall of ideologies, yet still be forced to endure interminable staff meetings about granular syllabus updates and the utterly meaningless metrics of "student engagement." Sometimes, the sheer, crushing banality of the routine was far more exhausting than a century spent fighting the searing, relentless thirst for blood.

Her daylight ring, a discreet, heavy band of polished obsidian and ancient silver, glinted briefly, catching a stray beam of weak autumn light as she pushed open the heavy, brass-fitted oak door of her office. The ring was not a piece of vanity but a brutal necessity. Without it, the sun—which for humanity was a benign source of warmth and life—would be a searing, agonizing torture, capable of reducing her to ash. It was a perpetual, painful reminder of her altered, monstrous state, a constant hum of immense power dangerously coupled with profound vulnerability. It was the essential charm that allowed her to blend, to maintain this meticulously constructed façade of a normal, if somewhat aloof and intimidating, modern history lecturer.

The office was her consecrated sanctuary. Floor-to-ceiling bookshelves lined with first-edition ancient tomes and the latest cutting-edge modern analyses created a formidable, comforting barrier against the world. Her oak desk was habitually piled high with marked student essays (the blood-red ink she used for corrections was a small, private, macabre joke she would never dream of sharing), and a worn, dark leather armchair sat by the window where she often retreated, listening to the frantic, muffled pulse of the city below with her enhanced, preternatural hearing. She liked the quiet, predictable hum of it all, the profound knowledge that so much teeming life existed just beyond her walls, yet she was utterly apart from it, a silent, all-knowing observer. It was a comfortable, necessary distance.

She’d made the calculated move to Manchester over a century ago, drawn by the roaring engine of the burgeoning Industrial Revolution and the promise of a city constantly, aggressively reinventing itself. Weatherfield, her previous, simpler haunt, felt like a lifetime ago, a quiet place she still occasionally visited to check on Roy. Roy, her adoptive father, had been her steady anchor, her patient guide through the terrifying, exhilarating transition into vampirism. He’d been the one to teach her how to navigate the incessant, maddening thirst, how to embrace the raw, terrifying power, and, most crucially, how to survive in a world fundamentally not built for the undead. He was the solitary, vital reason she hadn't succumbed to the sheer madness and despair that claimed so many newly turned creatures. He and her family—Michelle, Ryan, Kate, who she'd turned herself many moons ago. Her small, unconventional, deeply necessary coven, a testament to the fact that even immortal beings required a semblance of home, belonging, and connection.

A sharp, crisp knock on her heavy office door startled her clean out of her quiet reverie. She hadn’t heard any footsteps approach, which meant it was either someone preternaturally quiet or someone moving with a deliberate, unnatural lightness. Her enhanced hearing, however, was rarely fooled by human efforts.

"Come in," she called out, her voice a smooth, low contralto, betraying none of the internal surprise the unexpected interruption had caused.

It was Lynn, the Dean’s Personal Assistant, a small, bustling woman who always looked perpetually stressed, as if the bureaucratic weight of the entire university rested precariously on her slim, overworked shoulders. "Professor Connor, the Dean is ready for you now. In his office."

Carla raised a perfectly sculpted, skeptical eyebrow. "I wasn't aware I had an appointment scheduled with the Dean."

Lynn wrung her hands, her anxiety practically vibrating off her. "It was a last-minute thing, Professor. A joint meeting. He’s asked me to collect you and the new criminology lecturer."

A joint meeting. Carla felt a familiar, sharp prickle of irritation bloom in her chest. Last-minute adjustments to her meticulously planned, rigid schedule were an enormous annoyance. She thrived on order, precision, and predictability. Such structure helped keep the more chaotic, dangerous aspects of her very existence tightly at bay. And a new criminology lecturer? She usually avoided new staff introductions entirely, preferring to observe from a distance, calmly assessing the intellectual landscape before deciding whether someone was even remotely worth her time or attention.

She stood up, her movements fluid, graceful, and utterly economical. Carla was a striking brunette, with hair that fell just past her shoulders like a dark silk curtain, and she possessed full, slightly sensual lips and high, sharp cheekbones that gave her an almost ethereal, aristocratic air. She was slightly taller than average, a commanding height that usually secured attention without her needing to assert a single thing.

"Very well, Lynn. Lead the way."

As they walked down the long, anonymous corridor, Lynn babbled nervously about the upcoming academic year, the terrifying new student intake numbers, and some interminable, tedious departmental restructure. Carla nodded in the appropriate, measured places, her mind already rapidly running through the potential scenarios for this sudden "joint meeting." A new interdisciplinary course, perhaps? A collaborative research project? She usually preferred to work entirely alone, or at least with academics she already knew, respected, and could intellectually dominate. New variables were disruptive.

Lynn stopped abruptly outside the Dean’s heavy, imposing office door, gesturing for Carla to wait. "Just a moment, Professor. Professor Swain is already inside."

Carla frowned slightly. Professor Swain. So that was the name. She heard a low murmur of voices from within; one was the Dean's booming, jovial baritone, the other a softer, yet distinct, female voice. Then Lynn opened the door, and the soft murmur became a sudden, visceral jolt that resonated deep within Carla's immortal core.

The first thing Carla noticed, even before her razor-sharp eyes fully registered the woman standing composedly by the Dean’s imposing bookshelf, was a scent. It wasn’t the typical, predictable human smell of stale coffee, faint body odour, or even the heavy, lingering perfume of floral notes. No, this was something else entirely, something anciently familiar yet acutely dangerous. Vanilla and coconut. A warm, inviting, almost edible aroma that instantly tickled something ancient and fiercely primal deep within her. It was subtle, almost ephemeral, yet incredibly, overwhelmingly alluring. And beneath that, a steady, rhythmic, utterly vital thrumming—the unbroken beat of a strong human heart, vibrant and full of life. Carla felt an immediate, profoundly unwelcome pull, a dizzying, magnetic attraction she hadn't experienced in... well, not since before she was turned, and never with this degree of frightening intensity.

Her eyes finally focused on the source of the disruption. The woman was a blonde, with her hair tied back loosely in a functional knot, revealing a strong, resolute jawline and striking green eyes that seemed to hold a sharp, challenging intelligence. She wasn't particularly tall, giving Carla a distinct advantage in height and physical presence. Her posture, however, was supremely confident, almost defiantly so, even in the Dean's imposing domain.

Dean Miller, a portly, sweating man whose enthusiasm for academic administration was matched only by his love for garishly elaborate ties, beamed widely at Carla. "Ah, Professor Connor, just in time! Come in, come in. I believe you two haven't yet had the pleasure." He gestured between them with a dramatic, unnecessary flourish. "This is our superb new addition to the faculty, Professor Lisa Swain. Criminology department. Professor Swain, this is Professor Carla Connor, our esteemed Head of History."

Lisa offered a small, polite, yet clearly reserved smile, though her vivid green eyes held a glint of something cool and unreadable, a distinct lack of deference that Carla immediately clocked. "Professor Connor. A pleasure." Her voice was lower than Carla had expected, a slight, attractive husky quality that further intrigued the vampire.

Carla felt a strange, almost obsessive compulsion to study her, to commit every detail of this potent human to her eternal memory. The way her lips curved just so, the subtle, defiant tilt of her head. It was… profoundly disarming. She extended a hand, her movements smooth and practiced. "Professor Swain. Welcome to Manchester."

Lisa's hand in hers was firm, warm, and utterly alive. Carla could feel the subtle tremor of her pulse through her sensitive fingertips, a tantalizing, dangerously seductive rhythm. The vanilla and coconut scent intensified, wrapping around her like an invisible shroud, pulling insistently at the ancient, caged hunger she usually kept so tightly locked away. This woman, she realised, was a potent and unique combination. Dangerous.

Dean Miller clapped his hands together, blissfully oblivious to the subtle but powerful currents of tension and fascination flowing like a high-voltage wire between the two women. "Excellent, excellent! Now, to business. As you know, we're always looking for innovative ways to bridge disciplines, to offer our students a richer, more comprehensive understanding of the world. And it occurred to me, with Professor Swain's arrival, that we have a truly unique opportunity."

He leaned enthusiastically over his vast desk, his eyes gleaming with departmental pride. "A joint course! 'History of Crime and Punishment.' Imagine, Professor Connor, your unparalleled knowledge of historical contexts, ancient laws, societal structures… combined with Professor Swain’s expertise in modern criminology, forensic psychology, and the evolution of criminal justice systems! It will be groundbreaking!"

Carla felt a familiar, sharp wave of territorial possessiveness rise within her cold chest. Her university. Her department. Her intellectual domain. She thrived on intellectual challenge, yes, but collaboration, especially with someone she didn't know, someone who radiated such an unusual, distracting, and frankly alarming allure, felt like an unacceptable intrusion.

"A joint course," Carla repeated, her voice perfectly neutral, though an intense internal battle was already raging. The thought of spending extended, mandatory periods of time in close proximity to Lisa Swain—that scent, that pulse, that sharp intelligence… it was an unthinkably dangerous proposition. Yet, there was also a perverse, undeniable curiosity, a flicker of excitement.

"Indeed!" the Dean chortled, mistaking her hesitation for academic consideration. "I've already sketched out a preliminary syllabus. The first half focusing on historical precedents, the second on contemporary issues. You two will co-teach, obviously. Splitting lectures, collaborating on assignments, joint office hours…"

Joint office hours. The words hung in the air, a tiny, unsettling echo in Carla's mind, sounding like a potential trap.

Lisa, meanwhile, had been listening intently, a thoughtful, serious expression on her face. "It sounds like a fascinating prospect, Dean Miller. I'm certainly open to it." She turned her gaze to Carla, those striking green eyes meeting hers without flinching. "I think we could make a real, lasting impact on the students."

Carla felt a familiar competitive spark ignite deep within her. Impact? She'd been impacting students for over a century; this was her turf. She cleared her throat, a deliberate, low sound. "It certainly has potential. However, Professor Swain, I must make it explicitly clear that while I welcome the collaboration, this is my university, my department, and my established course area. I have a long-established, proven method for structuring my courses, and I believe we should adhere to that framework. We'll be doing things my way on this course."

The small, polite smile on Lisa's lips vanished instantly, replaced by a cool, unyielding expression. The air in the room, already charged with Carla's tightly controlled internal conflict, suddenly crackled with a new, distinct, external tension. Lisa's strong jawline became even more pronounced, a sign of her own burgeoning defiance.

"Is that so, Professor Connor?" Lisa's voice was still low, but now it held a definite edge of steel. "With all due respect to your considerable tenure, I've just moved my life halfway across the country, with my daughter, for the opportunity to build something new here. I have my own established methods, my own rigorous pedagogical approach, and I assure you, they are equally effective. A collaboration, by its very definition, implies a mutual contribution. Not a unilateral dictate."

Carla's internal vampire bristled violently. She wasn't accustomed to being challenged so directly, so quickly, especially not by a newly arrived human academic. The sheer audacity was almost admirable. Almost.

"My methods have stood the test of time, Professor Swain," Carla countered, her voice dropping a crucial fraction, a subtle undertone of ancient, unquestioned authority that usually silenced all dissent instantly. "History is a discipline that thrives on rigid structure and proven methods. Criminology is, relatively speaking, a nascent, younger field. There are established hierarchies of knowledge that must be respected."

Lisa’s green eyes narrowed, and a flicker of something akin to amusement mixed with hard defiance crossed her face. "And yet, Professor Connor, even 'established hierarchies' are fundamentally designed to evolve and improve. Criminology may be younger, but it is precisely that youth that allows for dynamic, cutting-edge approaches. We can't fully teach the history of crime without understanding the modern theories that explain it. And I intend to bring those to the absolute forefront."

Dean Miller, suddenly sensing the rapidly escalating verbal skirmish was spiraling out of his control, cleared his throat awkwardly and loudly. "Now, now, ladies. Let's not get ahead of ourselves. This is merely an initial discussion! Of course, we'll find a way to integrate both of your excellent approaches. A balance, if you will."

Carla pointedly ignored him, her gaze locked onto Lisa's. The vanilla and coconut scent was now a persistent, almost blinding distraction, a frustratingly sweet hum beneath her irritation. This woman, with her steady, maddening pulse and her razor-sharp tongue, was a challenge unlike any she’d encountered in decades. She was almost… exhilarating. And that single thought was the most dangerous one of all.

"A balance," Carla conceded, though her tone suggested anything but equitable compromise. "But a balance often requires a senior partner to firmly guide the direction. And in this instance, that would unquestionably be me."

Lisa let out a short, incredulous laugh, a sound that grated on Carla's hyper-sensitive hearing but also, frustratingly, sent a jolt of something unexpected—a strange thrill—through her. "I assure you, Professor Connor, I'm quite capable of guiding my own direction. I didn't come to Manchester to be 'guided' by anyone, senior partner or otherwise. I came here to innovate."

The tension in Miller's office was now thick and palpable, a live, buzzing wire stretched taut between them. Dean Miller looked visibly faint. Carla, however, felt a strange, coiled thrill. This was fundamentally different. This wasn’t the usual academic politeness or the deferential respect she was so accustomed to receiving. This was a genuine clash of powerful wills, made all the more potent by the unsettling, undeniable attraction she felt.

She wanted to verbally dismantle Lisa’s arguments, to assert her dominance, to put this sharp-witted human firmly in her subordinate place. Yet, another ancient, predatory part of her was simply intrigued, almost appreciative of the fight.

"We shall see, Professor Swain," Carla said, her voice dropping to a silken, dangerously low purr that only Lisa seemed to truly catch. A flicker of something, perhaps surprise, perhaps a deeper, dangerous understanding, passed through Lisa's striking green eyes. "We shall see."