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    after the death of his husband, gojo satoru thinks his world ends at the age of 22. it's impossible to believe that it may actually just be beginning.

    “he used to tell me all the time that no one would ever love me like he does.” satoru whispers into the dark, feels suguru’s arm tighten around his middle, around the ribs that are misshapen and still tender from all their breaks at toji’s merciless hands, “now i hear his voice in my head say that, and for the first time i don’t panic. i think thank god.”

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    23 Apr 2026

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    “Satoru?” The word rings, fuzzy in his ears as it whines like tinnitus, familiar and heart stopping.

    ‘I’m dead.’ He can’t even hear his own thoughts over the loudness of the world, staggering where he stands, eyes still fixated on the sky, on the sun. ‘I’m dead, I died, I felt my heart stop, this can’t be, it can’t-’

    “Hey,” it comes again, a little more urgent than before, a little closer, another hammer to his ears and all the noise shrieking behind his eyes. He recoils hard enough to go stumbling as a hand reaches for him, covered in flesh rather than empty bone, tan and recognizable. Unbelievable.

    There’s something wet trickling from his nose. Bile stings on the back of his tongue. The words dissolve into the rest of the white noise as he stares up at the blue of the sky, and tries to remember if he’d ever had a hallucination as bright as this.

    ‘I have to be dead,’ he thinks. Somehow, he isn’t.

    Or: Gojo Satoru goes back in time. He makes a couple of changes for the better.

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    31 Mar 2026

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    After hearing various stories about his best friend’s dick, Satoru’s curiosity gets the best of him.

    (“Okay, look, in my defense—” Satoru cuts in, not knowing what to do with his hands as he makes vague gestures in the air, “—your dick has been the talk of town!”

    “What the fuck?”

    “People have been talking about you and ‘it’ a lot these days, and you know me, I have FOMO!” Satoru reasons, as if FOMO is a real condition that can be medically diagnosed. “I mean, when there’s a party I don’t want to go to, I always end up going because I have this strange fear of missing out on something crazy or exciting. In this case, there are people on campus who have seen and talked about your dick like it’s the greatest gift to mankind, so it’s only right that I get to see it, too!”)

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    04 Mar 2026

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    Maybe this is just another reason, another excuse for Satoru to be touched by Suguru, to be pliant in his hands if only for a temporary amount of time. At this point, Satoru will grasp at anything to get Suguru’s attention, whether it be through his touch or his gaze or his voice. It’s already been decided:

    Satoru will get a tattoo, and Suguru will be the one to do it.

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    In an effort to entice his tattoo artist best friend, Satoru ends up with a tongue piercing and a tramp stamp.

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    28 Feb 2026

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    Suguru met Satoru at fifteen, a light shining bright that guided him through the next few years of his life. Until everything fell apart. Love, loss and grief. Years later they are reunited to find that all their old feelings still persist. But the road ahead is not simple.

    This story explores changing friendships and relationships. It explores the idea that one's mind can become their worst enemy. The difference between healing and avoidance. Kinda a deep dive into mental health and love persisting.

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    25 Feb 2026