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    No Matter The Cost by

    Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)  

    16 Jan 2026

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    "My body! That's all I have left."

    Alhaitham stares at him in bewilderment.

    "What are you-"

    "I don't want to owe anymore debts!" Kaveh yells abruptly, clenching his fists. "Nothing in life is free, I know that. I've learned that the hard way. And the last person I want to be indebted to is you."

    Kaveh can't pay rent, he hasn't for eight long month, there just isn't enough money. But the last thing he wants is another thing for Alhaitham to dangle over his head.

    He initiated it, but still, he never expected to find a new rent contract slipped under his bedroom door with the payment changed from mora to sexual intercourse.

    AKA; Alhaitham and Kaveh use rent as an excuse to explore each other's bodies until their greed leads to more than just mere mutual lust.

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    Can’t Get You Out of My Head by

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    03 Jan 2026

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    "Where's Alhaitham?" Cyno asked.
    “Bimarstan.”
    “Alhaitham's in Bimarstan and you’re here…eating?”
    “I’m hungry.”
    Cyno stared back at him, flabbergasted. “You’re eating very well,” he noted.
    “The food is good,” Alhaitham said, taking another bite of chicken.

    After an accident at the Akademiya, Alhaitham wakes up to find himself in Kaveh's body, with Kaveh also in Kaveh's body. It causes a lot of confusion and chaos.

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    right there in front of me by

    Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)  

    14 Oct 2025

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    During a desert expedition, Kaveh becomes trapped in an ancient ruin all alone and finds himself ….. dead. As a ghost, he observes the aftermath of his death, including the reaction of his roommate, Alhaitham. Alhaitham, who probably finds Kaveh bothersome and would rejoice at his disappearance. Somehow, his reaction just doesn’t make sense?

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    15 Jun 2025

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    Love Island: Teyvat by

    Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)  

    25 Apr 2026

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    Teyvat: a world of culture, passion, and diversity. Now, it’s the backdrop for the hottest social experiment of the year.

    Ten singles from every corner of the region are dropped into an isolated luxury villa on the coast of Sumeru with one goal: to find love and stay in the game. Every move is watched. Every kiss, every argument, every late-night confession— it’s all captured as the stakes get higher each passing day.

    Couple up, or pack your bags.

    With surprise arrivals and shocking twists, relationships shift like the tides in the ocean. Some will fall hard and fast. Others will play to win. But under the sun, one thing’s for sure: no one leaves unchanged.

    Love is real. Drama is guaranteed. And trust? That’s the rarest currency of all.

    Welcome to Love Island: Teyvat.

     

    COUPLES IN THE VILLA CURRENTLY AS OF THE LATEST CHAPTER: Xiao/Lumine, Kinich/Mualani, Childe/Yoimiya, Cyno/Tighnari

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    Video Games in our Shared Dreamscape by

    Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)  

    21 Apr 2026

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    More than 50 people, stuck within a dreamscape. More than 50 people who barely know each other and don't know what’s going on.
    As a black door appears in an area in the middle of all this, two twins stand side by side.
    It seems that many fates will be intertwined tonight.
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    Or a genshin react fic where all playable genshin characters get to experience the genshin impact gaming experience themselves.
    And suffer, of course.

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    Chapter 25 excerpt

    “Why is the grand duke of Meropide with you?!”

    Oh- Oh fuck. Wriothesley threw the popcorn away as he scrambled to look more innocent than he already technically is–

    “ARE YOU HAVING AN AFFAIR?!?!”

    How the hell did she come to that conclusion?!

     
    NOTES: This was made for fun! Don't like it? Be a decent human being, skip, and don't leave anything as you go, thanks! If I still find someone say shit like 780users, well that's just evidence that some people are terrible and some people can't read.

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