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    The moment Ilya slips the wedding band onto Shane’s finger, it feels like the world goes quiet for the first time in his life.

    Peaceful in a way Shane has never known.

    They’re married. Husbands.

    And Shane is excited for all of the firsts that lie ahead of them as a married couple.
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    OR: A Bunch of "Firsts" from the First Year of Shane and Ilya's Marriage

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    22 Apr 2026

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    Lovely lovely people

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    Ilya’s hand wraps around his bare wrist and squeezes. Shane barely stops himself from collapsing to his knees.

    The pressure lights up every receptor of his touch-starved nervous system, wrenching a small, pained noise from the back of his throat. Every muted sensation comes flooding back so intensely that it almost hurts. He needs Ilya to hold him down until there’s nothing inside him but quiet. He wants to sink into him and disappear.

    It takes Shane an entire beat to remember where they are. Fighting against the fog in his mind, he manages to drag his gaze up to meet Ilya’s.

    There’s a slow-dawning horror and understanding on Ilya’s face.

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    Or: Shane is in subdrop after their encounter in Vegas. Ilya fixes it.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    OG Subdrop

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    For years, their rivalry has been the perfect cover for something far more dangerous. Separate teams and conferences allowed them to hide their secret relationship behind hard hits, heated stares, and carefully managed media narratives. Being enemies was safe. Being teammates is not.

    By the time Shane lands in Boston, the media frenzy is already in full swing, eager to see how the former rivals will coexist. Their first meeting in the Raiders’ locker room is charged and restrained — two men pretending they’ve never touched, shaking hands like strangers while the team watches.

    On the ice, though, the problem becomes obvious. They play like they’ve always belonged together — instinctive, seamless, lethal. Teammates start noticing. The chemistry is too natural. Too practiced

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    24 Mar 2026

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    It's good but very different

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    "After an hour of breathing exercises, retracing what he had learned about himself and others, he opened his Notes app:

    want:
    Ilya
    Stanley Cups
    Awards

    not doing:
    Dissociating
    Making myself small to make others comfortable
    Waiting ten fucking years

    Watching the clock, the time he had been waiting for was finally there.

    Time to remind Ilya where the smoking area was."

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    In 2021, Shane and Ilya are sent back to 2008. And they are determined to do it better this time.

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    17 Apr 2026

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    LIVING THE DREAM
    WOMEN HAVING THOUGHTS WOMEN PASSING THE BECHDEL TEST WOMEN HAVING AMBITIONS FEMINISM

    I adore this version of them and their friends so bad like the prefrontal cortex being used to the max

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    ILYA: For a long time… this was something I kept locked in my chest.

    His hand presses lightly against his sternum as he says it.

    ILYA (CONT'D): I could not talk about Shane. Not to teammates. Not to media. Not even to friends sometimes. I lived in fear - fear of losing hockey. Fear of losing respect. Fear of losing him.

    Shane, noticing his anxiety, reaches for him - pulling Ilya's hand into his own, running a thumb across his knuckles

    INTERVIEWER: And now?

    Ilya’s expression changes. It brightens, not theatrically, but genuinely. It’s like a cloud clears away, and for a moment he looks radiant.

    ILYA: And now… Now, I finally get to live in the open. I am very excited about that.

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    Or, coming to streaming services this fall: A Crave Original documentary series... The Game Changes

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    17 Apr 2026

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    An actually good doc about them